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Sleeper
03:35
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LYRICS:
there’s a spot inside your chest filled with hatred and fear you suffocate vent your spleen let it out on me attach yourself to the skin you’re itching away you are bleeding out you’re a sleeper light up the darkness that I’m in drowned in this emptiness that surrounds me speak your mind fill me in when all words fail strain your eyes you are blinding me all emotions collide you’re paralysed this unconscious state you’re in why don’t you move why won’t you move a deafening noise my vision’s fading consuming tears from a suppressed hatred shivers headed toward the broken ambushed by fear in a mind unspoken light up the darkness that I’m in drowned in this emptiness that surrounds me release every feeling until I flee never have I felt so alone in one’s company
you’re a sleeper
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Shibuya
02:42
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Shibuya lyrics
what’s been forgotten lost in waves of noise of a million reasonings burning through my skull and I keep thinking
 that these signals in my brain are just illusions that only I’m experiencing I think we’re broken and these wounds will never heal just tear me open and rip the last good out of me I feel, I’m choking in all of what has passed and soon 
forgotten as my life is leaving me
we rode your bike to your mothers old house left with nothing 
but destruction
 for the ones that tore it down we were avengers with an impulse to improve but you were forever changed by the beat of her restless body’s weakened pulse
do you remember in Shibuya we swore to never leave when the hatred started growing as you were her and I was you and I swear I thought I loved you and it was hard to understand the meaning of your words and the actions of your hands and I’ll comply
I think we’re broken and these wounds will never heal
just tear me open and rip the last good out of me I feel, I’m choking in all of what has passed and soon forgotten as my life is leaving me
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Dysphoria
02:44
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Dysphoria Lyrics
my head is spinning an emotional mess my feelings a crescendo a pain of bliss departing from the withering tree as we’re abandoning all of our memories I hold you close but to love you as a friend is like the hardest thing I’ve ever done a lust for loss a love for the lost I wither
I see the flowers by the bedside as they grow to rectify all of my mistakes I see your shadow through the tall grass collapsed to the floor in a longing for more I turned a vision into a sidetrack only to give up on everything I’ve kept I saw your eyes in a glimpse and realized that only time prevents everything from happening at once
at times I still worry about the feelings that we left condemned ourselves to what was right not what was meant stale flower will you ever blossom again or if I died stopped breathing?
I see the flowers by the bedside as they grow to rectify all of my mistakes I see your shadow through the tall grass collapsed to the floor in a longing for more I turned a vision into a sidetrack only to give up on everything I’ve kept I saw your eyes in a glimpse and realized that only time prevents everything from happening
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Resented
02:31
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watch me as I have struggled to stand without disdain the sky is clearing up now absorbing all the pain ..decisions are delusions delusions are defeat defeat is a decision I have accomplished in my sleep.. these lies control my insides as my insides decomposes my mind but my wounds keep leaking blood from this itching skin I’ve tried.. but my mind is an impasse resented till I die forgive me for I have sinned I feel these lies control my insides as my insides decomposes my mind destroys my decency tears at my defense deceiving failures as I try to stay away from them my wounds keep leaking blood from this itching skin I’ve tried, but my mind is an impasse resented till I die watch me as I have struggled to stand without disdain the sky is clearing up now absorbing all the pain
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Seclusion
03:06
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Seclusion lyrics
disregard yourself 
a brick embedded to the wall
 they’ll never be forgiving
 (you’re just a fraction of a whole

) they harmed you in every aspect
 to control all of your fears 
deluded it’s a hierarchy
 (to hold you down once you get near )
this winter I will hibernate 
never to come back
 this place is ours forever
 (an ascending heritage)


I’m nesting in your heart 
the only place that I call home
 defeated now and bleeding out 
(from clipped wings feathers regrow) 

secluded in your head 
a place where I can rest 
and shed my skin, be born again, regain the strength myself

I’m nesting in your heart the only place that I call home
 defeated now bleeding out but my feathers will regrow
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Funeral Plans
04:23
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Funeral Plans lyrics
reflecting voices 
from marble walls 
receiving words
 it’s all just noise
inside my head
 inside my heart
 this feeling of regret
 I’m just a child 

how beautiful you look today
 a peaceful rest in predecay 
this wooden box
your splintered skin
 give me some days
 then let me in 

your mom is here
I heard her cry 
I believe she meant it and so do I
 as much as I like to hate them 
the more I sigh 
the guilt is mine I wasted time

 who are these people
 who seem to care 
why are they here
 where were they then 
you needed trust 
you started to drift they pushed you even further
 into the pit 

my feet are slipping 
I think I fell
 can’t feel my body 
can feel nothing at all
 I see only flowers like a garden path
 and my blood is leading way
I’m almost there


..a few days later
 what has passed
 I don’t remember
I’m reading through the scrapbook we wrote together
 word for word back in December


“Funeral Plans” the chapter read
 “let’s end this life ..let’s end this shit ..we’re better off, we’re better off ..without those who tell us off ..we are the static in waves of noise
 we are deceiving but without a voice
 we are controlled by our own fears
 we are introverts ..well we are here
 we are the chosen the ones who cared
 we are diverse and treated as
 we are illusions of our own selves..” 
Hope, I miss you more than my words can express 

"we are defeated 
forever broken 
lived to be open
as life started to close in
 forever quiet
 in minds of thoughts 
and they will choke me
 till I give up"
and we made funeral plans 
tried to make sense of the meaning of life
just to lose it again 
just to lose you again 
but I will find my way
 maybe not in life but in death 
and Hope, this time I will stay
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